Relaxing

I'm not sure which direction I'm going in with my training. I haven't swam or biked since my last race. Thursday I did a 25 minute run and a 45 minute arm workout. I'm feeling ok, so not great. Not sure what I'm missing. I want to work out hard, but I'm losing my motivation. I have the Muddy Buddy race in three weeks but I haven't been on my mountain bike in over a month. I haven't had anyone to ride with. Skyler won't take me and Carrie is too busy. I'm still looking for my fantasy body shape, but I don't have the motivation because it seems that no matter how hard I push, I'm not getting any better.

Saturday I ran in the Chapman 5k. I finished in 23:02, my fastest 5k time (post high school). I wasn't satisfied because I wasn't 1st in my age group, I was 5th. Carrie finished after me, but placed 3rd in her group. How did my group suddenly get so competitive? My legs were pretty sore that day and the following day. I guess I did push myself.

I thought that my half Ironman race in next March might be my last race, but I think I may have another full race year. Kids were a topic of conversation, but we just can't afford one right now. Maybe in 2011.

Today I am going to swim. I need to speed up my swim. Not sure how to do that, but I will try. Long swim set today.